How Much is Too Much?

Yesterday I received an email from the adoption agency.  This was a mass email sent to anyone that had requested more information about adopting from China or Hong Kong.  Hong Kong had made it to our final 3 list, so we received this mass email.

There is a Chinese baby boy (Noah) in Alabama.  He is about 5 months old and needs a family.  He is on dialysis and will need a kidney transplant as soon as he is big enough to receive an adult kidney (about 2 years old).  He also suffered from placental abruption and likely will have some developmental delays and possibly even cerebral palsy.

He is currently in the hospital with an infection and is on 3 different antibiotics.  He sees a physical therapist, and an occupational therapist, and another doctor about his kidney.  At the age of 4 months, he had the head control of a 2 month old but is improving with therapy.  He also has trouble eating because he wants to suck without taking a break to breathe - another sign of delay.  But the severity of his condition is unknown.  All of the unknowns will be revealed as he continues to grow and whether or not he develops on track and meets age appropriate milestones. 

All of this is weighing my heart down.  All I can imagine is a 5 month old baby in the hospital with no mother to hold him.  And I ask myself, how much is too much? 

Please pray for Noah, that God will heal him and that God will match him with the perfect family.